tv show: none.
argh i feel so wasted today.
TV show: some chinese swordsplay show, Twin of the Brothers.
okayy oily food and oily food do not mix, as i found out on friday afternoon but i was kinda touched cuz my fren treated me to oyster omelette and offered to me first. i mean like, yeah, i didn’t really like cockles for their bloody taste and it was VERY oily, but i was like ^_^ when i got it first but i tried not to show it, cuz then they’d think i was weird. and maybe i am, cuz it doesn’t really matter anyway who gets it first.
BUT. thanks to tok, i don’t think so. Emotion and Reasoning made me sure that yes, it does matter. and i’m still happy abt it now, although not so much, cuz it fades!
although i didn’t have much to talk cuz they seemed to have more in common and so talked more among themselves. i spent the time half listening to them while pondering abt something that happened two hours ago. for that 2 hrs ago incident b4 the lunch, im very sure i had nothing to do with it. the person just didnt like me, im sure of it. i nv did anything but that person just has an issue. don’t know, don’t really care. haha pettyness? both of us.
back to the lunch. yes i was very happy. now i just need to find more to talk abt. hmm hope it’s not getting to be a compulsive activity…and then i lanned with the lanners ytd night and tonight. fun.
den it was supper btwn 4 of us, me ong xinwei n deanie. yucks da curry chicken is so salty, and the SPECIAL barley lived to its name. i can still feel the food sloshing.
lately i think i’ve been spending more time and energy on my social life than my school life, although much has been spent on school life (i have more completed assignments now, but i’m losing steam! i’d better not lose it!!). i become more sure of some frenships, less for some (but for that case, i don’t care).
then i remember smt my mum told me: don’t spread urself out too much among ur frens, cuz u wouldn’t know how to deal with it unless u’re naturally popular.
i dunno, on both parts. i guess i do spread myself out a bit much, but i see the logic; i haven’t found any really close frens yet. even those which i thot were close, now arent. i think that’s why im focusing really hard on a few now.
ah okayy i’d better go slp. even knowing that im currentlly first in online amazing race for leg 10 won’t help. my eyelids are shutting down!! ZZZzzZZzzzzz…..
*nights* =_=
ps the body clock had better not wake me up at 730 tmr, i’d scream if i do wake up then! the clock works on the wrong day!
TV show: none…tv has left my life again. oh i watched a rerun of love at dolphin bay (sounds like it) does that count??
Communication n honesty. 2 things that are impt in a marriage. i think they apply to any and every relationship as well.
well…maybe more communication for friendships, but honesty still impt la. cuz i was kinda thinking abt my social life. communication is very impt. no pt chasing some1 u can’t talk to very well. it’s a different case for frens, cuz u can always cultivate common interests. for bgrs, the girl would probably eschew u cuz u’d come on as too strong, for most girls.
do i come on too strong? i’ll find out tmr morning. or maybe it’s just the way i ask.
i think i have cemented my frenships inside and outside of school now. there was one frenship whom i valued most once, but i think it will nv be the same again, even if we were on spking terms. the situation then would be too different to salvage. probably we’ll just remain acquaintances. but i think she was my best fren before that. no 1 else came close. all i can say is…i wish she’d listen to my views once. just that once. since she’s alr made her choice, it’s hers. i’m no longer compelled or encouraged by my concern for her to help out cuz my views weren’t valued.
and i wonder. if i goof up a bit, does it really affect relationships? is it entirely my fault, or is it just petty? i really don’t have the time to waste on why things don’t work out now, rather on my hw and such. the time to settle such differences can come later, since tat situation is different than that of my best fren.
i must thank a tan prince S for listening to me. she kinda knows abt my situation, and she maintains her neutral view irregardless, so far. hope it stays that way. i guess age gap doesn’t matter.
hehehe. on a happier note, i think the frenship im putting more emphasis on now is getting better…haha i think im finding it a challenge to try to get him to talk. should i think it this way? maybe it’s not a challenge, it’s my care & concern to want to open him up. okay omg this is sounding a bit not str8, a bit gay. wadeva. i know best. it’s my wordpress.
and…i’m hoping she says yes when i ask her. it would make my day.
if not, i’ll just ask some1 out. it’s just a date, not a life & death experience.
cya ard =O
TV show: none. out all day at SYF.
get the pun in the title/? i think Ian is smart enough to. =)
yes we got SYF gold with honors. i am so happy, and really surprised by this. I was so scared when I heard the other schools. i’m like, we’re nothing compared to them. At least for the 1st half, in my view. I didn’t think that the 2nd half was that gd compared to the schools of the 1st 1/2. many were sure we get gold though, so i was like this: high chance silver, moderate gold, bonus if gold w honors and miracles!!! maybe i came down too hard on myself, cuz benlee said my vicegrip on his hand told him how nervous i was. and i was swearing every 2-3 seconds. palms sweaty…. ARGH!
they really scared me. and this is my first jc performance…my last jc performance…my last guitar performance for the school. i had to leave on a gd note. nothing below a gold. if i got silver, i’d be so sad and pon. if i got gold w honors, i’d be so happy n pon as well. haha. either way i pon, but i guess since i got gold w honors, mite as well go to school since the feeling’s not about to wash away so soon.
we were kinda like the underdogs. chen yi, our best, thot that we could only get gold. our flaw was our number, 20. compared to the colleges who could amass many. i thought that it was our advantage though…not sure now. aiya who cares the day is over alr.
but i have to say that although i did not hear the secondary school ensemble perform, i can safely say that u guys deserved gold with honors, in my heart. really, you guys do. the improvement u guys have shown is phenomenal. many of you wanted the gold with honors, i know u wanted it too. dunno what happened. and if i do know i’d scold a gd one anyday for u guys. and maybe i do, but i don’t think it’s writeable. it’s best left known only to us why. you guys have definitely put in more time compared to us. i can empathise with u guys, i had that feeling before, 2 yrs ago. all of us from orch A felt it. but i don’t think any of us gave up, most of us went on to work even harder, and these people are the most prominent ppl in guitar, most from the committee. myself included, although i’d say that the rest did more than me, but i know i did my part and have my heart in it. i belong to ACSGO!
people that i wanna thank for today…
eugene. u deserve it, and u should find some spare time to relax.
ian & andre. pains in my neck, but a little pain is healthy. to feel no pain for too long makes me weak. but u do bring along much joy for me as well. i thank you 2.
chen yi n timothy! the peers who kept my morale in guitar up!
the rest of GO! you guys make my life at guitar easy and difficult .
Sheung Yan (Pong)! haha. did u survive one day with my tie? or did u just chuck it away n buy a new one? i’m ecstatic, i could say ur tie kept me relaxed and kept me presentable, and i could perform without letting nerves ruin me. and i owe u a meal, haha i promised! =) i dunno what was it abt ur tie that relaxed me though. haha. i’ll tell u if i know why.
any1 that i have not thanked yet. i thank you! really.
the title really talks abt what i feel. my happiness. omg. april is the lucky month. my month. AND MY HOROSCOPE COINCIDES WITH THAT, today as well for both books respectively. haha. maybe i should pay a little bit more attention to it. =) i should thank my God, and God as well, whether the horoscopes were just plain coincidences or not, i kinda placed my fate n feeling in them. yes i know it’s not gd to serve 2 masters, but i follow my dad’s religion but study in a methodist school. so i’m kinda like a free thinker, i guess? religion is not my main focus now…sry to say that…but i’m really no energy to do such things. IB drains my energy away. maybe it’s an excuse.
when i’m done with studying n NS, religion will be a more impt part of me. i’ll want to explore a spiritual path.
okay i think this entry should stop since my mum says that if i get a scholarship, i can write 1 whole diary to articulate my feelings. haha. parents. always thinking for the long term. =) i love u mummy, sorry i was too full to eat ur noodles and soup that u cooked, committeee dinner! =))
okay, should i revise for chem prac n add on for huck finn? or should i just slp? if im too excited..i’ll just do it. otherwise, fuck it i’ll just leave it till tmr. whoops, think i should just do the former. haha i’m so over the world, i just had to say the struck out text. don’t mean it!
magical. I should listen to my favorite song now, Ranma 1/2-Present.
gd nitez… =)
ps. i mite private one more post to talk more abt this day. probably another day though…too tired.
TV show: Fashion House.
I just discovered that “perfect 10″ Bo Derek is a Scorpio. Imagine that.
Anyway, it’s the night before SYF and i’m currently on my way to sending my Huck Finn work to Bernice. i see many people online on msn. oh ya i’m not supposed to use msn n frenster compulsively. although…i don’t see much of a difference i still don’t get the most of my work done unless i make a complete cut! hehe. i’ll try my best though.
yep and I DID NOT PON THAT DAY i was seriously feeing unwell that day. how abt, i memorised the song alr? i don’t have to be scared, just nervous! but i didnt go anyway cuz i was sick, so no chance of feeling nervous then.
oh well, last week overall….was okay. quite a bad ending…but maybe i was just sensitive?
monday too…sensitivity again? but today was gr8. i had a challenging time stringing out conversation but i managed it! =) and i intend to do more…that’s the only way i can put in effort to want to be a close fren. i sure hope im not doing it in vain, i guess i really treasure it.
this will be my motivation to make sure both schools get GOLD W HONORS, despite the increase in difficulty of gettin it, but we are not affected cuz we always do the difficult songs.
okay my eyes are burning so i’d better slp. loads to catch up on…slp tight.
nitez.=.= *yawns*
TV show: Judging Amy
it’s barely 1/2way thru the week, but i think it’s magic.
but i’d better give a little update on what happened to me this week.
to start, i woke up late 3 days in a row but managed to reach school with 5 minutes to spare. =) and chapel was very entertaining. Jordan must really love Rachmanninoff. the band was very lifelike with its playing, shyna n i were full of praises for it.
done with the math portfolio, haha i think i pissed Mr Sunil Dutt off. but hey, i think i should try to stay happy in class so i can do my work in high spirits, rather than yawn and scratch myself in boredom or gape at the formulae-filled whiteboard in terror. =) maybe i should ease up on talking to my classmates if not he’d be angry. whoohoohoohoo…
had an exchange programme for the Orch B with PLMGSS…SJI…CHIJ (Toa Payoh). haha. i think i should cover up a little here, so that any orch B person reading this won’t know my opinion and Mr Gaspar’s opinion of them. met lingjia, cijie (haha! XD), lina (inverse), and AUNTIE ilysa. hehehe. i think i can hear some1 calling me ah pei now.
and yes, u 2. u 2 can have fun teasing me? haha. plz, u can have it all to urself. you know what i’m talking abt. -_-
these 2 nights, studying gd english with gerald. monday at macs, tues at a new cafe…nice place. byron joined us for dinner and helped a bit with king lear. thanks, byron =) and i’m glad u pushed me to study for english, gerald. i study more over there than when i study at home. seriously. haha. why? i spend 1/2 the time blogging this =P and the other 1/2 frenstering…chattin on msn…etc…lol. i’m glad i can break away this way, although i know it’s just an escapist’s way of solving this problem of studyin alone at home. camwhoring?
today, i thought i would dread music. but Mr Li gave us all extensions. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart. I do need it. I’ll try my best to complete them asap. I do want to do well. HELLO, u examine 70% of our work, internal some more. how can i not work hard? i want to secure gd grade lor! and i want to put aside more time to learn economics more thoroughly.
and yes, i have an idea abt it now. i am quite sure i finally mean something…i think i do. i’ll find out in the days to come. i’ll find out..
and i don’t think any of you will ever find out abt what that means. although if u guess it, then good la. guessed it right. trust that u will keep it a secret. but that’s highly unlikely, you’ll never guess it.
my magical week. make it complete, thursday n friday. guitarists, make my day ez tmr. =)
TV show: none again. SHIT.
Math portfolio is out of the way. World lit is budding and King Lear too. BUT i have to type out 2 pages and 1 more, so that’s 3. thank you, Mr Sunil Dutt…i think.
But i still have music composition 3 draft 2 to complete. shit if i had known no 1 finished their 2nd draft i wouldn’t have opened my big mouth =( but that’s smt to worry abt tmr. Chem as well…shit i don’t want to wear out Mr Cheong’s patience…plz bear with me sir! I’m getting back my steam to work hard! Ms Ho too!
yes, as i was in the bus to pick up an Autograph from Shyna, i saw a definite number of Fillipino maids. Guess they do go to picnics in town or smt like that, i can’t remember. and i’m definitely not attacking them, just assuming that’s all…but there are like definitely more of them travelling out of their household to have fun. with my blocked nose, i smell coconuts and fragrances. maybe i got the coconut bit wrong.
oh yea. and Nature is certainly funny. I have 2 beehives growing in the most peculiar places. like, one outside my old room (my brother no longer opens the window), and one at the chain where u hang ash trays (the religious ones, not the jomming ones =p). This reminds me of the bees that always hang ard the lights, especially the one in my bathroom. the maid has to like empty the light cover cuz there’re too many bee corpses there that the light is dimmed.
scary. and i’ve been pricked once, becuz i thot there was some big mosquito landing on my pants. i swished, and *prick*. i have 1 new swellling.
Okay. time to do my music commentary before turning in. gd nite. *yawn*.
TV show: Fashion House, Judging Amy
yessir, i have a dinosaur com, dinosaur mac to be exact.
it’s just 1+ hour past gd friday as i’m typing this, ready to plop 1/2 dead into my bed. *yawn*. just discovered that eugene is letting his work take over his precious slp. Please slp well, if not, you just won’t be able to survive. IB does sap loads of energy alr without u having to slp later to do hw. =)
wow do ppl really do that in fashion house? i mean, i do know the fashion industry’s VERY competitive, but does Maria need to feign a heart attack to help lance get back michelle and stop michelle and luke from getting together?
and why do both maria and the character morgan fairchild (can’t rmb the name) is playing look so…young, it’s rather frightening? haha. the horrors of the office politics, scandals,etc.. going on in fashion house.
please bring ur laptop or wadeva tmr mom, i need it if i want to complete my math portfolio. i better remember to drop by school and pick up my tok essay to relook thru and finish up my music ia =(
OK THATS IT SHOWER TIME AND SLPING TIME GD NITE!
oh, and yes, now that yuan hao is back to blogspot, i hereby use his blogskin for my own. hee. =)
TV show: no time!
haha. stupid-but-clever (omg an oxymoron) online amazing race. i have to give the credit to chun ming though, wad an organised mind. he does a gr8 souped up vrsn =)
argh. i’m addicted! i’m an addict!! shit either that or i’m just extreme. i kinda am that way, i guess. i can feeel very happy, very sad, very hyper and very dead. ergh. i’m going to destroy my body with the extremes i feel n experience!
mudda. ok as i’m typing i have completed 3 legs for it. whee *3 legs mineral water*. 6th, 2nd, 2nd. 2ND BY 11 SECONDS. damn it. never mind i hope to do better. not so bad after all, considering it’s only my first time. ok shucks i’m starting to sound a itty-bitty narcissistic here.
argh ok frets! back to frets then. haha. i just found out that we were all FEATURED on youtube. lol thanks girl. although…maybe ease a little on the giggling, otherwise thx =) i appreciate it. i think the others do to xD
link : http://youtube.com/watch?v=sMLARtVt6XE
yes girl we know it’s teletubbies =)
and yes boy (hmm i’m still fixated on the assumption that dun hao is the one) thx for cueing us in on pokemon x)
oh well. i do hope things go out better for me. =)
i’ll end off with a poem i was made to do in the detour…
Thrills and chills in a place called Cuba,
A happier time in the place Venezuela
Ecstatic bliss i feel in Peru
Screw Guatamela for making me a fool.
