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Rules of the Game: Each player starts off with ten weird things or habits or facts about yourself. People who get tagged then must do the same in their own blog. State this rule too clearly. At the end, you MUST choose 6 people to get tagged and list their names. NO tagback.

 1) Orange.

2) Errr…I lost a lot of weight this year.

3) I had my hair seriously uglified once this year.

4) I hate being taken for granted, or neglected, or not seriously when I’m serious.

5) I do more bridge then studying in school.

6) Hate losing. Not sore.

7) I once paid for one guy’s shoes by losing in Black Jack.

I’m blinded by attraction, and give up all for it. And i usually regret it.

9) I do NOT like almond desserts.

10) I may look happy, but I’m not. Please help me…

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Ian

Andre

Byron

LingJia

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Shyna (plz read this in time)

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end of the holidays

oh..it’s finally the end of the holidays.

i wonder if i regretted some of my decisions…

like…yeah i did love the camp. and i would have helped out again next time. but would it have been even better if the camp actually happened at a different time of the year?

but that wouldn’t be right. if i had finished everything that should have been done, den i wouldn’t have to worry at all abt this. it’s these ‘what if’ qns that really stump me. but what’s the point? it’s alr happened.

but i can safely say that it’s not so bad. not to the point that i will die in school.

i can just screw music and focus on other stuff. like the exams n world lit. ioc as well.

all these low feelings. i hate them. i’m either ecstatic, or just dump-low. i wish these changes were less drastic, so i could just face the day more easier. but that would take a lot out of life, wouldn’t it?

Well, good luck to all of us CSSP facis (n the exco as well), who have sacrificed our last week of possible studying time to help out (or organise)at tis camp. i’m not making attacks at any1 here, just hoping we all get thru this smoothly.

will put up fotos another time.

till then, hope i we survive and meet again.

Heart Wrenching

The consequences of my slack has finally caught up.

I’m so caught up for breath, I can die.

Only…i can’t.

How many times have I faced this situation…?

Too many to count, or should I say, too lazy to count.

If I had a free next week, I wouldn’t be blogging about my regret.
And I don’t regret helping out, I only regret being at the mercy of my desire to do the important things later. Because of that, I am so stressed.

If I sacrifice my sleep to catch up, I’d only collapse during the camp. If i do the camp, I’d collapse during the exams.

What should I do.

I guess the only thing that I can do now is do what I can…which is world lit, EE and CAS. Music IA…recordings and a bit of composition. Sry teacher, but i’m so stressed I could cry. Can only say that I will put my all for music. But I must first finish all upcoming URGENT hw (urs is even more impt, but somehow i get distracted becuz the rest can be done in de same time i do all of urs, which is better. nv found the time to retype in my compos, how to? no time.)

I pray for the strength, and hope I don’t get demented like some1 I know.

I realised…

…that I never really put aside enough time for my self-preservation.
…that I never really thought much for myself, but for others.
…that at the same time, to think for others, I put away time for my family.
…that as the days of the holiday draw closer to the end, I feel more and more wasted but I can’t do anything about it because I never should have dawdled.
…that I’m doing this too many times, but I never learn the lesson in time.
…that I may be obsessing about, but I can’t help it. And I usually think it’s not just obsession. I have no idea.
…that the June Holidays are really short.
…that I really wasn’t meant for my school program.
…that I will be having the time of my life (I hope) =) at camp next week.
…that I am going to die, as I already have, millions of times.
…that I need to start. If not, I’ll never be able to get out of this snowpile.

okayy i so wasted $16 today.

major spring june cleaning.

cleared drawers and shelves. threw away loads.

then studying chem…
then a bit of lan…still dare say i gd at cs. pwned me so many times lor.
dunno who the hell took our cards make us pay $6 more…hope its not some sham.

sigh. i miss.

hmm okay time to bring down blogging to a new low with quizzing! =D
following the quiz shyna did…

1) Last person I talked to on the phone? Uncle..
2) Last person who testied me? Cijie.
3) Last movie? Spiderman 3.
4) Strawberries? sure…i guess.
5) Most memorable place? Ermm…any place with the one i’m currently thinking of.
6) Read Comics? Stupid qn. Next.
7) Fave food? Erm…i’ll have to say curry here.
9) Like Shopping? ok la i guess.
10) Do you eat a lot? Another stupid qn. Next. Although there are ppl who say i don’t eat a lot now…yes signs of hope!! =D
11) Do I have a religion? … =.=
Do I have any enemies? Erm. I have no idea. Like. I treat my enemies almost the same as my friends, only i treat my friends so much better. Does that mean I have none?
12) First thing I do when I wake up? Flip to the other side and sleep some more. =D wad a no brainer.
13) Currently feeling… shitty. must be the lack of lighting just now at the lan shop. remind me to quit lanning at least till i’m done with all incoming hw.
14) Name spelt backwards? enahs. i agree, ’sounds anal’.
15) Last place i went? Hoagies…and the dim lan.
16) Last thing I said? Wasted cash today.
17) Attached? Nope…if I’m attached please do tell.
18) Getting married? I’ll ignore this qn. Obviously this quiz is not meant for the teenager. At least, the everyday teenager. W8, did i miss smt here?
19) Do I drive? look back to qn 18.
20) Like to rid on rollercoasters? kinda. reminds me of sonic the hedgehog n frens =)
21) Who am i currently chatting with? Cijie just now..
22) Sky diving or bungee jumping? how about no way.
23) Shy? Nope to most ppl. And Shyna definitely isn’t shy. how ironic. =D
24) Popular kid in school? dat’s not for me to answer. you’ll have to ask the ppl around me.
25) Red or gold? Red. Specifically, blood red. so cool.
26) Are you a good cook? mums do better jobs. grannies do even better jobs. sorry i don’t qualify for this qn =p since many ppl can cook egg n maggi mee and some other things. if not i’m ok la. won’t die.
27) The best thing in this world? Loving someone outside of the family who loves you the way you love him/her truly and passionately. romantic. that’s what i currently find as the best thing.
28) Ever broken a bone? Fish bones and chicken bones. human bones…not yet. i don’t dare get disqualified in competitions.
29) Won a race? if race = competition (sport) then yes.
30) Favourite arcade game? King Of Fighters 2002, with jewel fighter and photo hunt coming close!
31) Can I bake? only when ling’s around. somehow we can own. except once where we made the chiffon cake a pink ugly pancake =D still rmb or not? =D
32) Last item i bought at a store? Beef & Bacon Hoagie.
33) Love at first sight? i think so…i think i experienced it in sec 2 once. but obviously, the one that sticks on is what matters. so love at first true sight? yes. first sight? not so sure. only once in sec 2.
34) What’s my favourite song now? It has been, is, and probably will be, Present. I do listen to many other songs. I’m sure that ‘Present’ is my favourite becuz i nv no longer listen to it.
35) How many pairs of shoes do i own? okayy…chick qn. i’ll have to say 4. did i get that right?
36) Shirts I own? dick qn…w8. i don’t spend time counting my shirts. i have better things to do. next.
37) Do you have any pets? not anymore.
38) Worst television show i’ve ever watched? well. i’m not sure what it’s called but it was definitely crappy cuz i don’t even laugh at their jokes. it’s on channel 5 or 8 though (back then). i still love their other shows.
39) What am i wearing now? Samuel & kevin.
40) last qn. FINALLY. wa i can’t believe shyna spent so much time doing this quiz. what will i do after this? take a gd shower. i feel like a cesspool.

okay time to spk normally again

yay…okay i finally have no tv shows to report, cuz basically, i never watch any show completely w/o having to leave 1/2way to do some other thing.

okayyy…so the camp has taken up a gd deal of this week, but i love it. i love almost every minute of it.

i grow in thinking, i learn a little more, i get to know more people, i get to bond with my frenz! =) i’m happy. there will be no need to tell me that this para sounds frikking wrong, cuz you know me. mmmhmmm.

and for those whom i have not been in contact with, i’ve been kinda uncontactable. doesn’t help that my mobile fone had to crash real bad, tat my home line is screwed for dunno wat reason, i hope it will be solved soon. so currently i’m only contactable by some number, dunno what type it is.

don’t angry k. i’ve no intention to ignore fone calls (unless u’ve done me some gr8 disservice, which isn’t likely cuz i’m currently okie dokie with every1.)

hehehe i will try my best to go hoagies or macs to do huck finn and chem with my fren. =)

anything else i should say here?

OH YES. I just saw the most amazing torch that i SHOULD SHOW b and p. they’ll be speechless then, unless they see this blog entry first. heh. i must get back my fone la…den can scan the pic into this post =p

of course…if i forget, then too bad lo. =D

ps. not likely to get a prada phone. it’s seriously…expensive. n my fave orange is barely a year! got it during the time of the pumpkin jacks, on discount! =)

=)

The mind is a wonderful and scary thing.

Many times, people take the fact that they can think for granted and never really consider why we all are blessed with thought, with feeling. Why we are more capable then AI because we are equipped with emotions, and why we cannot immediately overcome the barriers of our products…i.e. the over-dependence on machinery.

Feeling separates us humans from robots. I’m glad I can feel what machines can’t, because while we operate the same way, only us humans can enjoy the satisfaction of our actions. We can have fun with friends, they cannot. Of course, we created robots mainly for our satisfaction, but that’s another story.

I never thought that I would be actually talking about this. If it weren’t for communication and the power of true friendship, I would never be able to learn things different from my everyday schedule.

But yet the mind is scary, able to suppress emotion in the bad things (or more like, the things we consider bad). For example, extortion. Burglary. Murder. Rape. I wonder how these actions are committed without worry of its consequence.

As our society grows, we get exposed to more different mindsets, whether accepted or not. The feudal ways still exist, but their conservative frame of thought is losing its hold, giving way to more liberal situations. Promiscuity. No-strings-attached sex. You name it. Things that have been unthinkable, they are being given more and more recognition, and some even acceptance. The Chinese would never forgive themselves if their descendants were to commit acts of incest. And yet in other countries, as long as it does not hurt others, it is allowed. Which is kind of ironic, since ‘genetically, it’s wrong.’ (taken from my friend =D)

I do not deny having a very vivid imagination: I think of many things, of which I think of them in many different situations. And yet I wonder why I never thought that there are people who think just as much as me, even if they do not grow white hair (unlucky me). Sounds like a self-before-others self-preserving mindset. But I try my best not to be so selfish. I believe in transformation.

OKAEEEE INTELLECTUAL POST DONE. whew. I need to practise writing skills, so might as well practise on a topic that i have stumbled across when in some insightful conversation this week =).

eeyer.

today was long-exciting-boring-fun-enriching-timewasting-memorable.

made a few frens. =D 3 bridgers n 1 string from HC, 2 adults, 1 SP.

hehehe. okayy larh the course. was not boring BORING, must be the feedback the first day gave such that today was very pleasant. ended 2 hours early =D

i know how to do a reef knot. left over right, right over left.

wa i survived being stuck in some smoke chamber. =p

AIYA today was just cool la. haha. don’t be angry at me la i reached there in time =)

i will do my best not to lan.

A checklist of things to do in this break…

1) Finish up Chem pracs
2) CAS
3) EE in as final a state as i can make it
4) Music IAs (they bloody take up alot of overall marks, must buck up here)
5) Don’t lan, from today onwards! hahaha. B, G, P, P, you can keep me in check here. at least till after the mid years and all IAs done.
6) Exercise! shit i miss those PE lessons.

And I’d love to figure out how Mr Sim does those tricks. I feel so stupid. =( haha he must think I’m really dumb now. It’s all in the eyes.

but…back to serious stuff. wheee i DotAed yesterday…Friday was just as fun (sigh…you guys…)

i wouldn’t mind more interesting things happening this June.