sat by my bed not long ago and thot abt my direction in life.
about to go back to last yr mode. again. better not.
well, it’s a new year, so I decided may as well shed those banana skin themes.
2009. I have NO idea what awaits my friends and I in this year. Hmm…wondering if we’re flexible, able to change our activitiy list as we meet new situations (somehow the economic crunch hasn’t really sunk in yet in my skin. i do hope i can feel it soon, i need the $)
while 2008 ended like most years, swirling with both positive and negative feelings (had to work in the night shift, sigh ok that’s a lie, i felt like shit becuz i got called back to work. SIA. but i lived with it and yet enjoyed it with my fellow colleagues), i felt that this year is different because i no longer look forward to another school year. Strange, and to think most of us had the thought of leaving school and saying, “finally out of school-conscripting.” only to wonder if we really are victims of the phrase, ‘the grass is always greener on the other side’. things weren’t so bad in school. at least we enjoyed together, suffered as well. we may not always stood by each other, but at least we darn hell lived with it together.
and it made a difference. i do miss school now, honestly. what’s left of school. most of the teachers i find familiar are gone. and that reminds me, i’m hoping yuanhao, andre, eugene, ian, edwin, shawn, amos, shao wei, op, ge, and anyone else whom im unable to remember at this slpy hour [cuz i just dotated, left the game becuz he left w/o a sound or smt ):< oh well ] do well for their exams.
just wondering…having met with some conflicts, why m i able to control myself better in a dota game than a real life thing? wish it were the other way round sometimes.
my eyes are burning. ok, night.
