i’ve seen my fair share of twats and ppl i can’t stop thinking about or caring about.
i’m grateful for all I’ve been given and i would like to thank you all for ur patience with me.
i also know that i may be weird towards u compared to the rest, but i do want u very much.
i ask for all your understanding and your recipocration.
i now only want to not be inflicted with unnecessary stress, and the care and trust and time i’ve been wanting for so long.
i am really hurt by what has been happening these days.
all i wanted was to do my obligatory commitments well and get out of it without any implications at all.
and now i have to cleanup for doing what i was told to do?
everyone tells me its not big but how would they all know?
i just dont want to get involved at all, period. if i make a stand abt it then, im told its not rite. i dont make a stand abt it and do as im told, this happens and i still dont get why. i get this ‘all for the best’ response, ‘its all right, dont worry, ur not getting it’ .
its not just about me alone but i dont understand why it has to be any of us!
we get steered in the direction we don’t want to, either a whirlpool forced or into the mouth of trouble.
ERGHGHHGHGGH. going to just do what should’ve been.
